Poly Life SuCkZ?

Poly life to me isn't that fun as I had expected it to be. Maybe for some but not for me. Becoz of my classmates behaviours and their characters towards me, I felt that they are not the kind of friends I had in Secondary School. It really saddens me to feel that I could not fully trust them even though they sometimes helped me. Maybe this is becoz they always say stuffs that hurt my feelings even though it is meant to be a joke. Compared to my poly friends, my previous Secondary School friends are more understanding and are always there to helped in times of need and they are easily trusted. Moreover their jokes are not hurtful towards others but I just don't know why my poly friends joked stuffs that always seemed to pierce through my heart damn forcefully and for that I feel hatred towards them. I really hope that as the years gone by, after spending educational time with them, I will be able hand over my trust towards them.